When helping someone may be just hurting them more?
Someone asked us for $100. We don't mind and we would have given this person the money, but (as a recovering alcoholic and drug user) we knew that he'd gone on a bender the night before.
Do you give money to someone who you think may just be slowly killing themselves?
Monday, March 8, 2010
Friday, March 5, 2010
Insecurity
I am not fat.
At least, I wouldn't tell you that I was. But when I look in the mirror or just feel my skin or see that number on the scale...all I'm thinking is...
FAT FAT FAT FATFATFAT!!!
We all have those stories, you know? My 'first' boyfriend (though I don't really count him anymore) broke up with me by calling me a 'fat tub of lard.' He then got the entire baseball team to laugh at me and call me a 'beached whale.'
And so my husband can say that I'm beautiful all he wants, and I must admit that I DO believe him sometimes, but there are times when I'm thinking...'You are totally just trying to flatter me.'
I think I do that with God sometimes. He says 'I love you' and I think, 'Yeah, I don't think you could love me.' And I would ask, 'Why would you love me?' And I could hear Him say, 'Does there have to be a reason? I love you because I made you.'
I get so frustrated sometimes with my husband. I tell him that I'm fat and he always says, 'I don't know what you're talking about.' YOU didn't hear them telling you that. YOU didn't have to be laughed at by everyone.
But Jesus had it so much worse. Understatement of the year.
I just need to leave it at the cross and let Jesus take it up and just KNOW that God loves me, 5 pounds heavier or 5 pounds lighter.
At least, I wouldn't tell you that I was. But when I look in the mirror or just feel my skin or see that number on the scale...all I'm thinking is...
FAT FAT FAT FATFATFAT!!!
We all have those stories, you know? My 'first' boyfriend (though I don't really count him anymore) broke up with me by calling me a 'fat tub of lard.' He then got the entire baseball team to laugh at me and call me a 'beached whale.'
And so my husband can say that I'm beautiful all he wants, and I must admit that I DO believe him sometimes, but there are times when I'm thinking...'You are totally just trying to flatter me.'
I think I do that with God sometimes. He says 'I love you' and I think, 'Yeah, I don't think you could love me.' And I would ask, 'Why would you love me?' And I could hear Him say, 'Does there have to be a reason? I love you because I made you.'
I get so frustrated sometimes with my husband. I tell him that I'm fat and he always says, 'I don't know what you're talking about.' YOU didn't hear them telling you that. YOU didn't have to be laughed at by everyone.
But Jesus had it so much worse. Understatement of the year.
I just need to leave it at the cross and let Jesus take it up and just KNOW that God loves me, 5 pounds heavier or 5 pounds lighter.
Thursday, March 4, 2010
Quick Prayer Request (UPDATE)
My soon-to-be sister-in-law is 15 weeks pregnant. Her last Facebook status is 'Something doesn't feel right...?!' from last night. We can't get ahold of anyone to know if she's okay or if she was talking about something else.
Could you please pray for her and her child?
UPDATE: She got back to me on Facebook and said that she'd had really bad cramps on one side last night. Thank you for your prayers so far, could you please pray that the cramps were nothing? Thank you!!!
Could you please pray for her and her child?
UPDATE: She got back to me on Facebook and said that she'd had really bad cramps on one side last night. Thank you for your prayers so far, could you please pray that the cramps were nothing? Thank you!!!
Trust
I go through phases. I'm sure most people do that, right?
I've bungee jumped. I've skydived. But right now, when I even think about getting in an airplane, I get nervous. WHY?! I FLY ALMOST 6 TIMES A YEAR!!!
And I do the same with trust. I trust my husband. I still ask him sometimes, 'Why do you love me?' If I trusted that he loved me, I would just accept it.
You totally know where I'm going.
I have had these great times in my life where I've trusted God. And there have been times where I've thought, 'Well, I trust You, but...' And that's not REALLY trust.
"Cause me to hear Your lovingkindness in the morning, for in You do I trust;
Cause me to know the way in which I should walk, for I lift up my soul to You." Psalm 143:8
Do you have trust issues too?
I've bungee jumped. I've skydived. But right now, when I even think about getting in an airplane, I get nervous. WHY?! I FLY ALMOST 6 TIMES A YEAR!!!
And I do the same with trust. I trust my husband. I still ask him sometimes, 'Why do you love me?' If I trusted that he loved me, I would just accept it.
You totally know where I'm going.
I have had these great times in my life where I've trusted God. And there have been times where I've thought, 'Well, I trust You, but...' And that's not REALLY trust.
"Cause me to hear Your lovingkindness in the morning, for in You do I trust;
Cause me to know the way in which I should walk, for I lift up my soul to You." Psalm 143:8
Do you have trust issues too?
Wednesday, March 3, 2010
Pride
Our pastor has been saying that Lent is the time to see our wounds, the wounds that keep us from Christ and to ask Jesus to fix them for us.
And I've been thinking about my pride. I am often proud of other people, proud of my husband. But C.S. Lewis said that was different then the pride that is in myself. The pride that makes me think that I'm always right.
The pride that makes me want to give charity but not BE charity. And there have been times in my life where I could have been charity, I think.
I am not above God's charity.
But I have done a lot of things on my own and I think that has made me somewhat prideful. I've been trying to ditch the pride for awhile, but it's hard. It's a hard habit to kick, you know?
I've been humbled by the thought and I've started to pray more for myself then I ever used to. But it's still a daily struggle.
Do you have wounds that need healing?
And I've been thinking about my pride. I am often proud of other people, proud of my husband. But C.S. Lewis said that was different then the pride that is in myself. The pride that makes me think that I'm always right.
The pride that makes me want to give charity but not BE charity. And there have been times in my life where I could have been charity, I think.
I am not above God's charity.
But I have done a lot of things on my own and I think that has made me somewhat prideful. I've been trying to ditch the pride for awhile, but it's hard. It's a hard habit to kick, you know?
I've been humbled by the thought and I've started to pray more for myself then I ever used to. But it's still a daily struggle.
Do you have wounds that need healing?
Tuesday, March 2, 2010
Prayer Request For Vashti
You guys may know that I talk about Vashti a TON. I kind of love her. Thank goodness I'm meeting her in May or you may think that I was some creepy stalker person.
Vashti has a person who is staying with them right now named Merv.
Here's what Vashti told me about him:
He is a full blown alcoholic and mart just took him to rehab, they said that he is too far gone and that we have to take him to hospital tomorrow so they can detox him without killing him. they siad if he doesnt do it then he will be dead in a couple of weeks!!!! NOT GOOD!
Could you please pray for him? That he would understand that he REALLY needs to do this before he dies? Please feel free to pass this on to anyone you can think of. Thank you!
Vashti has a person who is staying with them right now named Merv.
Here's what Vashti told me about him:
He is a full blown alcoholic and mart just took him to rehab, they said that he is too far gone and that we have to take him to hospital tomorrow so they can detox him without killing him. they siad if he doesnt do it then he will be dead in a couple of weeks!!!! NOT GOOD!
Could you please pray for him? That he would understand that he REALLY needs to do this before he dies? Please feel free to pass this on to anyone you can think of. Thank you!
Monday, March 1, 2010
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!
Happy Birthday, Steve!
How many birthdays have we spent together now?
This is birthday number 11 that I've been blessed to celebrate with you!
And I know that I haven't been at all of them. Whether I was in England or just an hours drive away...but you're always in my thoughts.
And you're right, you know. That God only grants us today, that this could be your quarter-life or it could be your whole life, we really don't know. We have no set time on this earth.
No matter when your time comes to go home to God, thank you for spending these years with me. Thank you for loving me for who I am.
It's been a great 11 years so far!
Happy Birthday, Sunshine! To another 26 years!
How many birthdays have we spent together now?
This is birthday number 11 that I've been blessed to celebrate with you!
And I know that I haven't been at all of them. Whether I was in England or just an hours drive away...but you're always in my thoughts.
And you're right, you know. That God only grants us today, that this could be your quarter-life or it could be your whole life, we really don't know. We have no set time on this earth.
No matter when your time comes to go home to God, thank you for spending these years with me. Thank you for loving me for who I am.
It's been a great 11 years so far!
Happy Birthday, Sunshine! To another 26 years!
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