I Trust You Guys

I do. So I'm going to tell you about something.

I met a woman in South Africa. I really like her and she's sweet. But she's asked me for a car.

For me to be able to do that, I would have to drain my savings account, sell my possessions and probably move in with family.

So why do I still feel so guilty?

I know that Jesus tells us to give to all who asks of us and I feel like telling her no is going against that. Ugh.

And I'm just worrying and spinning!!!! I know I need to be still. It feels like it's all coming at once.

But it will be okay. It will all be worked for good and it will be okay.

But what do you think?

What A Week

Work until midnight every night.
Lists.
Lists.
Lists.


Sexual harassment.


I'm tired.

And I'm starting to discuss things with my husband that I always wanted, but never thought would happen.

And it feels like there are quotes on people's sites that maybe God put there to give me comfort:
‎"...maybe we have to break everything to make something better out of ourselves."
‎"When God is at work, bitter hopelessness can be the beginning of some surprising good." Robert Hubbard

I have pictures and things to tell you, but I'll save that for another day.

Matthew 11:25-30
Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.

Love Is Still A Worthy Cause

Have you listed all the times you've tried
Do you call on all your alibis
When somebody asks the question why are you hiding

did you feel the pull, did you hear a call
did you take a chance and lose it all
do you fear there's no collateral left for trying

Friend I know your heart is raw
But love is still a worthy cause
Picking up and pressing on
Oh love is still a worthy cause
It's the touch that starts the thaw
Love is still a worthy cause
or the word that breaks the pause
Love

It's the beauty in the tales we tell
It's the pushing through and ending well
and finding strength to give ourselves away

in the midst of passing bravery
in the face of our own injury
It's the constant generosity of grace

Friend I know your heart is raw
But love is still a worthy cause
Picking up and pressing on
Oh love is still a worthy cause
It's the touch that starts the thaw
Love is still a worthy cause
or the word that breaks the pause
Love

I love because he loved me
when I had nothing
I love because he loved me
when I had nothing
I love because he loved me
when I had nothing
- Sara Groves

"When God is at work, bitter hopelessness can be the beginning of some surprising good." Robert Hubbard

The Cold Winds

This is a song for you, to carry in your pocket
take all our love with you in all the paths you walk in
I can't say your life will always go like it should
but I can say that God is always good

and when the cold wind blows like I know it will
and when you feel alone like I know you will
and when the cold wind blows like we know it will

Don't let your love grow
Don't let your love grow
Don't let your love grow cold
"Song for My Sons" by Sara Groves

Welcome To The World, Ila!

Ila (ila) was born today at 10:35am. 6 lbs, 4 oz. and 20 inches long (is that super long?)

That's my brother-in-law holding his new, little lady.

AAH!! She's Coming!!

I was supposed to be in Ohio right now. Actually, I would have been boarding a plane to come home after my sister-in-law's baby shower.

Instead, they moved the baby shower to today and I couldn't make it.

Instead...

Her water broke and she's on the way to the hospital.

Baby Ila is making her way into the world...would you please pray for her?