Tuesday, October 25, 2011

How unhappy is he who cannot forgive himself.
~ Publilius Syrus

This is definitely something that I've been working on lately.  I've had so many thoughts on things that I've wanted to talk about!  Obedience!  Love!  But I've been busy.  You know how it gets.  I've been working on a video and learning so many new things and preparing for trips to Ohio and to Hong Kong and Kenya and hoping for a trip to El Salvador. 

I've lived a lot of my life thus far not forgiving myself.  I've forgiven people who really hurt me, but the person who hurts me the most is myself and that's also the person I find hardest to forgive.  So I'm trying...trying to let go of things people have done to me and let go of overthinking the wrongs I've done to others.  If they've forgiven me, why do I hold onto it?

So I'm working on letting go.


  1. You and me both. I torment myself on a regular basis.

    Wow, you have some great adventures coming up! Are these all mission trips? I can't wait to hear about them...

  2. Sooo exciting! I'm so jealous. Wish I could go with you. Well not for the anniversary trip. That would be just plain weird! :-)

    The book...I'm supposed to be happy, but honestly my head is spinning. I sunk into a deep depression a few days ago, and I'm just trying to keep my head above water. It's happening so fast and I feel so...inadequate. But I'm sure God will come along any minute and pull me up onto His white horse...

  3. I have also struggled with this issue. Then the Lord showed me that I was pretending to be better than Him, for He forgave me willingly.

  4. Praying you allow GOD to continue healing your heart and that you become completely whole. NO MORE hurting yourself! So often, we find ourselves as our greatest obstacle. I do understand, sweet friend!
    Hugs and prayers,