I have always had an inferiority complex. And when you read John 3:16, 'That God so LOVED the WORLD...' I don't really include myself in that. You don't ever really think...that's ME. He loved ME so much. Sometimes I do. Especially after reading 'Tattoos On The Heart.'
Yesterday was a bad day. And I was not nice. Today is a new day and I'm trying to open my heart with compassion.
But I still have these problems thinking that I'm not good enough.
I keep reading devotionals and passages that God disciplines His children and shapes them like a father who always wants to make their child better. But I feel like God would have to discipline me within an inch of my life for me to actually GET IT. And I keep thinking...my life isn't that bad, there are much worse things. Does God not want to shape me?
I think, well, I don't really want bad things to happen (hell, who does?) but if it means He's shaping me, then I could handle it. But maybe He knows that I couldn't. And maybe He's waiting and maybe He's still guiding me along, but I still just keep thinking...Am I good enough?