Thursday, April 22, 2010


I've had a few people recommend a blog and I've read it. And every time I read it, I agree...and yet I feel like I'm drowning, like I've been thrown in the deep end with a small understanding of swimming:

It is discussing giving up everything for Jesus. And I understand that. And I feel I am working towards that. But then I start to panic.

Am I doing it right? Do I need to sell everything I own and move to a foreign country? Do I need to leave my husband, even though I promised God I would be faithful to him always? What is 'everything'? What if my husband doesn't want to do all of this? Is it enough to give as much money as we can to these things until God calls me to something specific? Maybe this is a resting time, but what if it's not?

And I start to hyperventilate and I start to cry and I think, God, what am I doing wrong? Am I doing this all on my own understanding?

And I have to shout to the Lord to save me, like Peter called out to Jesus after a few steps on the water.

I've actually made myself physically ill. How ridiculous am I?

I have to remember Ecclesiastes 3:11: "He has made everything beautiful in its time." I need to remember that my time will come and that it may not be what I have been expecting.


  1. Remember when it doubt, give it up to God in prayer and simply ask, "What do you want me to be doing for you right now?" Ask God to show you the way and wait for doors to open or close. Remember that the answer, "Wait!" is the hardest one for us to accept.

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  2. One step at a time, sweetie. HE will give you just what you need for each day! Each and every one of us are in different places in our walk with the LORD. He grows us through circumstances, friends, prayer, Bible study, and a variety of other means. He does not want you to be stressed about your journey with HIM. No matter how much you will realize...none of us are ever totally there...we have LOTS to learn or at least I do. The more I learn the more I feel I do not know.
    Blessings, hugs, and prayers,

  3. Simmer down, girlie! Heheh..

    You know, God just wants you to love Him, and to love each other. That's easy, right? You don't have to move anywhere, or follow a game-plan. Just love Him, and love your neighbors. Mercy vs. sacrifice, remember? Just love.

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  4. Remember God is our father, a good father will not give his son a snake..see that our father in this world will give his all to his son or daughter, there's no reason our Father in heaven will not do the same. He will do more than we expect :) God just need a little heart and a little faith..

    Walk with faith and God will provide us everything. Like I did, until now I'm not afraid for what happened to me, just walk in faith and believeHe will give us everything we need. There's no risk in following God..

    Probably God said "come on my dear, what are you waiting for? I'm Your Father, don't you trust me for I'm trusting you?"

    Walk in faith ^^

    God bless you my friend.